The mirror is so filled with cracks
I don't know the face that's staring back.
Etched by time, and marred by shame
Eyes a portal to the pit of pain
Where hang the weight of a thousand sins
And a driving will to be free of them.
Lips could smile if they remembered how.
They just cant find a reason now
That all the love, and loss, and hate
Have reaped a cost that seems to great.
Yet, from within the cracks there shines a light.
A warming, healing glow that might
Blur the jagged, bleeding lines between
The face I see and the open door that sets me free.
Light shine through all the holes in me
And illuminate the path I need
To esc
I lie battle scarred and broken
Nothing left to give
Battling for each new breath
Not long left to live
Loosing the fight for consciousness
The darkness closing in
The noise around me fades away
As I finally give in
And from the darkness She appears
Reaching out to me
Come to take my hand
And set me free
In her arms I will rest
And Finally be at peace
But as she takes my hand and lifts me up
She stops to look at me
Compassion fills her lovely face
Sends shivers down my spine
As she whispers in softest voice
"This one isn't mine."
She draws me close and holds me tight.
And as my blood begins to flow
She kisses my face
An
I'm a drifter.
Just passing through.
I don't like it,
But it's what I do.
I move to town
And make some friends.
Then move away
And start again.
How do I affect
All the lives I touch?
Am I remembered
By those I miss so much?
Do they notice
That I have gone,
Or care that I
Don't stay for long?
I still think of those
I haven't seen in years.
I treasure the memories
And hold them dear.
Have they missed me
Since I've been gone?
Or have they forgotten
And just moved on?
I'm still out here
Looking to the stars.
Wondering how you're doing,
Wondering where you are.
I'm a drifter,
Just passing through.
Will you remember me
I am savage.
I am brutal.
I am lost,
Drowning in the hurt I've cost.
I am bending
Far past breaking.
Turn upon my hope. Forsaking.
I burn.
I scream.
I weep inside,
But naught can turn the breaking tide.
Nails bite
Through tortured skin,
Ripping me apart again.
I am hollow,
Hard,
And haunted.
Not the ending I had wanted.
I fight it hard,
But in the end
I find that I am dark again.
You and I
Have been together for so long
I can't imagine life without you
I wish you didn't have to go away
Can I ask for one last thing before you do?
Will you stand by my side
One last time
Before you go away
Just the way you always do
Hold my hand
And tell me everything's okay
Imagine finding you here after all these years
You still sit in the same seat
Looking out the window
In the diner where we'd always meet
Will you stand by my side
For old times sake
Before you go away
Just the way you always did
Hold my hand
And tell me everything's okay
You still look beautiful
I guess nothing's changed
I'm sorry, I don't have
Would You Remember Me? by Shadow--Stalker, literature
Literature
Would You Remember Me?
If I went away today
Would you remember me tomorrow?
If I turned and walked away
Would you come and try to follow?
If I told you goodbye
Would you remember the words I said?
If I were no longer here
Would you keep me with you in your head?
If I disappeared forever
Would you still see me in your dreams?
If I went away today
Would you still remember me?
Lost in land of shadow
Darkness bars and blocks my way
Wandering in emptiness
Waiting for the light of day
But the daylight does not come
And I am left alone
Searching for the light
In ways you don't condone
You look down on me
In my search to find the light
You criticize my methods
Say what I'm doing isn't right
But what you refuse to see
What you fail to understand
Is that, though I'm not perfect,
I'm doing the best I can
This Used to be so Easy by Shadow--Stalker, literature
Literature
This Used to be so Easy
This used to be so easy.
It used to come so free.
But now every word I write
Takes something out of me.
I used to put my thoughts on paper
Each and every day.
Now every time I grab my pen
I don't know what to say.
My mind is so disjointed.
My thoughts just wont connect.
Nothing seems to flow
With the words that I select.
But once again I take my pen,
Unsure of what to say.
It's been so very long, I only hope
I can make sense of my thoughts today.
~Zach Marcus
Bullet for my Heart by Shadow--Stalker, literature
Literature
Bullet for my Heart
I stand in the doorway
a gun in my hand
the pain in my head
is all I can stand
as I stand watching
you peacefully sleeping
my tormented soul
is bitterly weeping
I hate you so much
for what you have done
you warmed my cold heart
and made my life fun
but growing to careless
you dropped my heart
slipped from your hands
and shattered apart
you said you were sorry
but the pain is too strong
I cannot forgive you
for what you've done wrong
I came here in anger
bent on revenge
trusting these bullets
my heart to avenge
but, watching you sleep
so trusting and free
whats's left of my heart
starts calling to me
startled, I fi
The mirror is so filled with cracks
I don't know the face that's staring back.
Etched by time, and marred by shame
Eyes a portal to the pit of pain
Where hang the weight of a thousand sins
And a driving will to be free of them.
Lips could smile if they remembered how.
They just cant find a reason now
That all the love, and loss, and hate
Have reaped a cost that seems to great.
Yet, from within the cracks there shines a light.
A warming, healing glow that might
Blur the jagged, bleeding lines between
The face I see and the open door that sets me free.
Light shine through all the holes in me
And illuminate the path I need
To esc
Debt Owed
I stand alone
In fallow field
With nothing but
A sword to wield
I stand alone
Before my fate
I'm not crazy
Only late
I stand alone
To face my doom
Nothing left
Of heart but ruin
For when I heard
The drums of war
I ran away
From the gore
Brave and strong
Unlike me
Friends and brothers
Did not flee
But stayed on
And in courage fought
The massive horde
That fate had brought
I alone
Ran away
While everyone else
Chose to stay
They fought bravely
Never faltered
But outnumbered
They were slaughtered
Now I alone
Am left alive
Of happiness
Now deprived
As a coward
I'll be remembered
While my fami
Debt Paid
Steel rings on steel
Outnumbered thousands to one
One lonely warrior
Refuses now to run
Steel crushes bone
As he cuts them down
Falling all around him
Blood pools on the ground
Steel tears through flesh
One by one they fall
But now, surrounded
He cannot kill them all
Steel dripping blood
For every drop he takes
He redeems himself
Of his past mistakes
A cold steel blade
Pierces burning heart
Body and spirit
Now are torn apart
Steel slips from his hands
The strands of life are frayed
Falling to the ground
His debt has now been paid
Zach
Marcus
You are my last and lonely friend
The final one which I defend
The only that I can trust
All else decays to filth and rust
The only one for which I care
The only one who’s ever there
I wish that I could repay you
For all the things you always do
But from this sorry life I’ve learned
I cannot give what you deserve
So I offer you my love
Though not nearly what you’re worthy of
It’s all I have that I can give
From this meager life I live
I can only hope that you accept
This only gift that I have left
I Love You
As I lie here bleeding,
And calling out your name,
I'm not begging you
To take away my pain.
I just wanted you to know,
That when I call to you,
It's not at all for me
Or what I'm going through,
But to show you my love,
That you might find,
Even as I'm dying,
You are foremost on my mind.
The final thing that I
Want for you to know,
Is that I love you more
Than I can ever show
Zach
Marcus
Keep a Candle Lit for Me by Shadow--Stalker, literature
Literature
Keep a Candle Lit for Me
Keep a candle lit for me
In the window of your heart.
Don't let it get put out
By our being apart.
Keep a fire hot for me
In the hearth of your soul.
Let the warm memories
Ward off the lonely cold.
Keep a song on your lips,
And sing it just for me,
Whenever you feel alone,
And wherever you may be.
Keep those tears from your eyes,
Please babe, don't cry.
I will come back.
This is not goodbye!
Zach
Marcus
I push myself too hard.
I spread myself too thin.
I tried to put an end to it,
But that's where it all began.
My fear that you'll discover me
And who I really am.
You wont like what you see,
And I'll be left alone again.
I longed to win your favor,
To have you notice me.
But afraid that I would fail,
I made a false identity.
Always acting I'm what I'm not
Leaves me sick and hollow.
Always hiding in this lie
Is more than I can swallow.
I long show you me,
And who I really am.
Because I'm tired of living
In this stupid scam.
I don't think you'd like me.
It is my biggest fear,
That you'd learn the truth of me,
And then not
Do not leave me here,
As I pass away.
I do not want to be alone.
I am so afraid.
Please stay here with me,
And hold my trembling hand.
I may not be making sense,
But please try and understand.
It is not death I fear.
I'm not afraid to go.
I only ask you stay because
I don't want to die alone.
Zach
Marcus
I Will Die
Rain falls from a cloudy sky.
The stars are blocked away.
Drowning in unhappiness,
You cannot face another day
So on this dark and stormy night
You make a solemn pledge
Up upon a lonely rooftop,
Standing near the edge.
A decision wrought of years of pain,
Of a life that isn't fair,
Weeks and months of suffering,
And people who don't care.
You are sick and tired of suffering.
With nothing left to live for
You say it's just too much,
You can't take it anymore.
So you make your solemn pledge
To escape this endless strife
And stop all your suffering.
You plan to take your life.
But if you should go through with thi
The mirror is so filled with cracks
I don't know the face that's staring back.
Etched by time, and marred by shame
Eyes a portal to the pit of pain
Where hang the weight of a thousand sins
And a driving will to be free of them.
Lips could smile if they remembered how.
They just cant find a reason now
That all the love, and loss, and hate
Have reaped a cost that seems to great.
Yet, from within the cracks there shines a light.
A warming, healing glow that might
Blur the jagged, bleeding lines between
The face I see and the open door that sets me free.
Light shine through all the holes in me
And illuminate the path I need
To esc
After watching the Hobbit again recently, I was struck by how much I have in common with Bilbo. He and I share a distinct reluctance to step outside the safety of our routine. We become flustered if our plans are altered or interrupted. The unknown frightens us. In fact we both have a tendency to resist anything that takes us outside of the realm of our comfort zone. Can you imagine if Bilbo had chosen not to make that leap? His choice shaped not only his own destiny, but that of his companions as well. Ultimately his impulsive decision to leave his hobbit hole altered the whole of Middle Earth.
God grant me the courage not to pass up
What if . . . .
What if I believe that a soulmate can't be quantified, that it is more than just a series of compatabilities, that it is a symbiosis of contact and connection driven to eternal flame by a single spark?
What if that one night that sparked four years will haunt me for the rest of my life?
What if. . . .
hey my love, its been a while since you have been on here! i still come on every day, but still no comments its ok, ill still keep drawing! no one can stop me!
have a beautiful moment right now, wherever you are.